Go shawty, it's MY birthday...we gonna party like it's MY birthday!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!
I woke up and sent my packages back to PA. Then Chels took me out to lunch. I pretty much spent the day cleaning up my room and re-arranging my stuff so it can be Chelsea's new office. She is making me dinner and then we are watching a movie. I also got to skype with Taylor today...for like 10 minutes but it was still nice of him to take time out of his day. Tomorrow I'm getting my birthday cake Roseanne made me. I hear it looks great! Then we are going bowling! It should be really fun...Also I got over 60 "happy birthday's" on facebook. What can I say?? The world loves me ;)

This year is going to be a good one.

You have the right to remain silent.

Today went by kinda fast. Did alot of packing. My room is starting to look different...it's sad. It will be my last room for awhile. I had alot of memories in that room...in this apartment. I guess packing everything up and getting ready to leave is bringing alot of thoughts into my head. Some of those thoughts should really just stay away...it would be better for me.

I don't know what it is, but I'm just not in the writing mood today. I mean, I have alot that I could say but I won't. I'll remain silent...for now.


Tonight I'm watching American Idol, pack some more, and eat ice cream all night. Then tomorrow is my birrrthdayy!

:) bye.

To a little bit of Chicken Fried.

Last night Chelsea and I ended the evening with watching Nurse Jackie, and United States of Tara. They are such great shows. Packed a little last night, and then went to bed. Last night was a good good night, let's just leave it at that;)

Soooo today was kinda stressful. I woke up to a text from Giana. Haha she had a surprise to tell me but I already knew what it was so I ruined it. Long story short, a friend of ours from 4th grade texted her, I found him on facebook, and now he is texting us both. I don't know how that is important to all of this but I felt like writing it down. Maybe because in 1 week I talked to 2 people from Line Mountain, (my old school) and it's been years since I've talked to them. It's kinda nice. Okay so moving on with my fabulous day..... jk, wasn't that great. Talked to Taylor for like a good minute, and I thought of one of our songs "chicken fried." Totally listened to that after I got done talking to him. Then, I got to skype with Jeanne and Lexy!!!! Alexa had no idea I was moving home next week and when I told her she got all excited and clapped her hands. That made me feel good. However, she was not happy about the fact that she has to share her bathroom. Hahaha. After that, I packed up all my clothes that I won't be packing in my suitcase. The big box is ready to be shipped out tomorrow. YIKES!

Tonight I'm watching American Idol and probably do some more cleaning in my room. Hopefully it will be another good night.

Oh! And someone who I thought didn't read my blog or would ever take the time to read this mess, did...and it made me feel great.

So thanks.

Thanks Nana...

Today was the day! Woke up and bought my ticket home for next week. Scary. I only have 1 week left here. The time went kinda fast for it being 9 months. I started gettng out some boxes and taped the bottom of them. Not sure how much I'll actually get done today but I have a whole week to pack. I'm trying to get rid of some clothes that I don't wear to save space...but I figured I should see if lex wants any of it first.

So this Friday Chels arranged a little get together for my birthday. We are going to Rock N Bowl!!! They play loud music and your lane lights up. It's suppose to be really cool, so I'm pretty excited. Roseanne is making me a cake...I asked for the colors to be pink with green pokadots. We'll see if that's how it ends up! I think afterwards we might come back to our apartment and watch a movie. Then, I have to say goodbye to everyone :(

I forgot to mention that my nana paid for my ticket home. She is such a good grandmother. We have always been really close and she has supported me in everything...even if I'm wrong. I don't think a grandmother can give more love then the love mine gives to me.

Love ya nana :)

The need to blog.

It is such a beautiful day here in LA. Too bad I'm not feeling well enought to go tan. So instead, I'm sitting on my porch typing away. I love looking around and seeing palm trees with the bright blue sky in the background. Occasionally a plane will pass by. Very peaceful. I'll miss this when I'm gone. Well, nothing new has happened but I just felt the need to blog. Andy said blog sounds like something that should happen in the bathroom. hahaha. gross.

So anyways, all of my friends have finals this week which means I probably won't get to talk to many people. That's ok though. Hopefully I'll be busy myself with packing up everything and shipping it back home. I can't wait to see everyone. My mom, sister, nana and pap, all of my friends too. It is going to be an awesome summerrrrr:)

That's all for now.

My damn future.

Today went as expected. I was suppose to get my ticket but that didn't happen. However I did get a couple of things done today, to keep my mind off things. Didn't work too much but oh well. Everything will make me feel better when I'm home. At least I hope so. I am so ready to get a job and prepare for college. Not sure where I'm going yet, but I'll let ya know. I'm so nervous for college. I haven't been in class since last June...I hope I remember everything and that I don't suck. hahaha. Also, I don't have a bedroom at my new house. Mom and my little sis moved into a 2 bedroom townhouse since I've been out here in California. It's a cute place, right in the middle of all my friends too. I'll just have to deal with the no bedroom thing for awhile. Summer is going to be so much fun. I have so many plans made it's crazy. Unfortunately, my job will have to come first. Alex and I are trying to work together so maybe work won't be as bad. I started job searching for jobs like a month ago and I continue here and there. blahhh...Getting a job sucks.

Tonight, Andy is coming over and we are just gonna hangout. It might be one of the last times we do. =/ After that, I'm probably gonna read and get to bed...


p.s. andy named this blog. haha:)

Hey Barbie, it's been awhile.

I can tell I'm not gonna like this weekend...the only thing that would make it better was if I got my plane ticket home. Even then it probably won't be that great because then I'll be sad about leaving and packing up my stuff next week. My sister and I made a list of some last time things we wanna do, which will be awesome because next week is my birthday!!

Today I went to target and got the best food ever. Came home, made dinner and watched 2 new episodes to Say Yes to the Dress. I love that show. I'm totally into all those wedding shows...Four weddings, Bridezillas, and whatever else is out there. haha...Soooo yeah I was suppose to babysit tonight but that got cancelled. They little girl's mom is my sister's good friend, and the little girl was sad I wasn't coming over anymore so her mom invited us over for like 2 hours. I got to play a shrek game, pretty pretty princess, and alot of barbies! What a night. Now to some snacks and a movie.

Catch ya later.

The truth hurts.

Ughhh. This Friday is not going to well. It's not like I'm having a bad day, it's that i'm just feeling extra down about things. The last couple weeks have been hard and stressful. I keep telling myself things to make me feel better. I still find myself in bed at night thinking up these stories that could never happen now. Do you ever do that?....Lay in bed and think about certain things that could happen in the future, or you would like to happen? I do it all the time. But then you come back to reality. It's weird how people change in the blink of an eye. The person you thought you knew, is gone. As much as you'd like to admit that they are still the same person, they aren't....and well, the truth hurts.

On a better note, my friend Alex got a blog! So now I have something else to read everyday. haha. If anyone needs help with getting a blog, let me know:)

Last night...

Last night I found out that one of my closest friend's has a blog! They didn't keep up with it much, but still. That's something I thought I should of known about. I guess I was just surprised. This person is a really good writer and very smart. The blog not only gave me inspiration on my blog and writings, but to be a good person. They reminded me how important family and friends are. Weird, all this from a blog. But this person is always there to help people. I know they have helped me out alot. If they ever read this, they probably won't think much.

Also last night, I received a text from an old friend. Don't you love that? We talked most of the night while he did his college work. I haven't seen him in a long time. Alot of memories came flooding in. I got to tell him that one day I plan to have a Yorkie. He's had one ever since I knew him. I guess you could say he got me started! Anyone who knows me, knows I love Yorkies. His mom still puts bows in her hair. So cute! Haha...So this summer we hopefully will get to hangout. We are gonna use my best friend's pool and go to Hersheypark. Ah! I can't wait to be home...

One Day :)

California

there has been a disagreement in my family of when i should be going home. they say june, but i say may! i am ready to go home and start working so i can save money for school. ughh...i thought for sure we were all on the same page. i mean why not may? i will have more time to work and airline tickets are cheaper. i guess we'll find out eventually...

anyways, i think my sister will be sad when i have to leave. i'll be sad. California has changed my life actually. i came out here to dance and get a job, but instead i found myself...found answers to somethings aswell. people can think it was a waste for me to come out here, and i know who you are, but i wouldn't have done it differently. i have learned so much and enjoyed my time out here. i know what i want out of life, and what i want to do. so, thanks california.

First blog.

hey! this is the first time having a blog and i must say, i have no idea what i'm doing! alot of people have told me that this is a good way to talk about things and let off some stress...and i have ALOT of that. hopefully, this will be a positive choice i have made. we'll see:)