i'm hot and i'm cold, i'm yes and i'm no

Katy Perry's song is just about right for me. I'm so messed up it's crazy! Like literally I don't even know what to do anymore. If I could take back time, I would. I wish it didn't hurt so bad. I wish it was something I could just deal with...but I can't. It's always there living in my gut. And the only thing I can keep asking myself is "whyy meeee??" Can anyone answer that? Nope, you can't. Because what happened was totally unexpected. UGH. help help helppp.

On a brighter note. I work now! So I'm making some money but I still have time to hang with my friends and do the fun summer stuff. Also, my sister is coming home in a little over a week! It's gonna be great to have the family together again! Kody is home for this week so I'm planning on seeing him too. Then he goes back to the marines:( Then T comes home in over a week too! There is sooo much going on! Can't wait!!

Ok so I have to blog about this really quick... Do you watch Pretty Little Liars??? OMG I love that show it's so great. If you are a girl I would def recommend it. abcfamily;)

alright well I'm off to watch so you think you can dance!

Take care:)

let everything happen on it's own.

Hey viewers, sorry it's been a long time. I've been extremely busy. BUT I finally got a job!!!! I start this Wednesday at the Hampton. I'm pretty excited. It feels great to at last be doing something. Now all I have to do is finish getting into Millersville and I'll be great!

So let's just say that things have been going really well. Better than I thought they ever would again. But recently I've been thinking about the past and some painful memories were starting to come back. However, I realized that I just need to block those memories and just concentrate on me. If I keep thinking of stuff that happened then I'm just going to continue to hurt, and I don't need that bullshit anymore. So, from now on I'm just going to take things slow and let everything happen on it's own. Yep, that's what needs to happen.


Oh! and my bestie Greta is going to Sweden to visit my best friend Jeanne! I love you girlsss!!! Wish I was with youuu.

Harrisburg, please give me a job.

I am so mad that I don't have a job. I've applied for 15 places! 15!!!!! By tomorrow it should be over 20. Harrisburg sucks. Well, actually the america does right now, but whatever.

Today was fun...Hung out with my girls, Greta and Giana. Thursday I'm going to Dinner with Giana and her mom, then sleepover and swimming on Friday! I can't wait. It will be fun.

So I made these really awesome plans next weekend with 3 other people, and I'm afraid they aren't going to work. It's suppose to be a road trip/ reunion. We'll see I guess. I'll let you know what happens ;)


ttyl...